Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Speaking of new beginnings

Oh my goodness I've found you! What has it been 5 years now?  Things are very different for me now, and oddly the same. Re-reading my post on new beginnings I have to say I totally agree with younger me.  There are no new beginnings, but it does feel good to be back, a new start perhaps, but surely not a new beginning.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008


Is there really such a thing as a new beginning? Or are we doomed to carry around with us the baggage and scars of the past? Do new beginnings become old beginnings as we again and again, slide the dirt and shit under the rug hoping that we don't trip over them?
Short of amnesia, there is no such thing as a true new beginning. We constantly carry with us the scrapes and lessons that we have picked up along the way, those don't leave us. As we age our ability to heal and adapt diminishes, and we need to take more care; we need to take heed the lessons of the past and move on as we best we can. There are no new beginnings.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

The One - 09/24/08

I dreamt we went shopping and everything I tried on fit and flattered me. You told me you loved me, before fading away to nothing.